HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
Our oldest daughter had a very hard time with life 4 years ago. Being a victim of bullying was more than she could take and started cutting. Below you will read the letter she wrote me later on to let me know that I had helped her even though I felt so helpless. The pain I felt is indescribable. She changed my body in a way that would change who I was for the rest of my life and I could not understand why she would want to tempt fate and potentially take her own life.
I'm sorry if this makes you cry, I am as I write this. Her words need to be shared. And oddly, it gave me the power to say, "I am a Good Mom!" and not have that hit of questioning my words in the back of my mind.
If you have gone through something like this, share with me the joy and let go of the pain.
I just wanted to write you a little letter to tell you just how much you mean to me. Although I have to admit that I'm having some trouble tying to do that, no not for the reason that you think. I just don't know how to say that I feel truly blessed to have you as my mom. I go to school and listen to everyone talking about how they hate their moms or watch them do mean things to theirs (C.H. comes to mind from the Town Fest), and I feel sorry for them. While you and I may not have a Lorelei/Rory relationship like off Gilmore Girls, I'm kind of glad for that I really and truly believe that I would not be here if it wasn't for you (and not for the very obvious reason either. ) Last year or I guess it was close to a year and a half now, would not have turned out the way it did if not for you. I'm sure that if I was not brought up the way you and dad raised me I would probably be the drinking/partying teenager. Mostly I just want you to know how much I care about you and I hope you know that anytime I tell you, "I hate you" or anything along those lines I absolutely do not mean it. I hope that anytime you are sad or not feeling that great about yourself you take this out and know just how special you are to someone.
I love you! Happy Mother's Day!
I have this letter laminated, my will states it is to be put it up with my casket at my funeral.